Feeling confused inside .
Saturday, 21 April 2012 | 06:38 | 0 comments
I realized I'm a person of no courage at all .I've never actually fought for anything before .
I never stood up for myself , never talked back to defend myself .
When someone scolds me for something ,
I never stood up for myself , never talked back to defend myself .
When someone scolds me for something ,
all I can do is say sorry .
Why ?
I don't know , either I'm a complete whimp with no guts at all ,
or I just don't like fighting .
Especially if it's a friend of mine .
I'm not trying to say apologizing resolves everything ,
but sometimes I feel that apologizing makes me feel a little better I guess .
But I do get the fear that if the person is angry at me , & I apologize , the person might think I'm just faking it & blahblah .
Sigh , I don't like fighting at all .
I've never fought w anyone before (excluding my brother) .
& I hope I never will .
Even in relationships , I realize it's the guy that always brk w me .
Whenever they say brk up ,
I would just say "oh okay.." .
Even if I'm very sad ,
I don't try to talk to them about it .
Maybe I really am a whimp .
Someone who is unable to fight for herself .
Heh , I'm so useless .
hahaha ..









